On Moodiness

[jumperkid]

I find it very frustrating that, although I can analyze and dissect the motivations behind my emotions, it does nothing to STOP said emotions. Why bother understand such things if it doesn't help in the slightest? I'm in the middle of many changes right now. Moving, new job, etc. I have more than a few trepidations, although no inclination to stay where I am. I know that I'm cranky because I'm nervous and I don't want to leave, and so on ad infinitum. I know that many of my reactions to things are in an attempt to reassert control and honestly, are quite irrational. Doesn't even begin to change that I still feel the way I do. It just seems a little pointless to be so rational when I just might as well be a monkey reacting by instinct. Although I guess a monkey would really have a problem with moving and starting a new job. Monkeys are basically monkeys no matter where they are. Maybe those monkeys who learned sign language have job issues. I've never really asked before. But I sense that I'm getting off topic. Which is probably not a bad thing. I will go now and hopefully tomorrow will feel a little better. Although tomorrow I need to pack some more. Which will not help, but it must get done.